My Jesus! You are He, that baby in my arms…
When I first held you--carefully, nervously--on that night of your birth, I pondered your perfect nose…your little fists…your tiny toes…your lusty cries--the life that came from my body.
How could I have fathomed the agony of watching you beaten, and bruised, and crucified like a thief--my firstborn, my heart? Your cries pierced my soul, and as your blood drained, so did my hope. I can give you life no longer.
God has promised you that. God has promised me that. Do I believe Him?
Where are you now, my Jesus? Descending into Hell? Are you taking even my horrors, my brokenness, my failures upon you? I am so sorry, my Son…my Savior. I wish I could have taken your place; but I am not stain-less, nor spot-less, nor whole. You are all of these. You were necessary. Now you are gone—from me, for me.
God has said you will rise again—to new Life. God says I will have new Life in You. Do I believe Him?
Your Father God forewarned me of yesterday. He sent you to die…but it is I who helped to give you life, Jesus. Suffering seemed so far away on that first night. You were my son, too. I ache for you. He said your shed blood would be the final sacrifice—once for all.
God has promised that you will defeat death. God has promised me eternal life. Do I believe Him?
God has spoken of joy in the morning. but this night is very long—so long. I will not sleep, nor have I since you died, my Love. My child, I wait for you. I need you. Be my Comforter.
He has said you will ascend to your heavenly home—so I can truly go Home. Do I believe Him?
I want to.
I wait. I hope. I pray. I cry.
Breathe again, my child; for me…for all. God has spoken.
I believe Him.
I believe in God, the Father Almighty,
the Maker of heaven and earth,
and in Jesus Christ, His only Son, our Lord:
Who was conceived by the Holy Ghost,
born of the virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, dead, and buried;
He descended into hell.
The third day He arose again from the dead;
He ascended into heaven,
and sitteth on the right hand of God the Father Almighty;
from thence he shall come to judge the quick and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Ghost;
the holy catholic church;
the communion of saints;
the forgiveness of sins;
the resurrection of the body;
and the life everlasting.
The Apostles’ Creed